Wednesday, January 23, 2008

stagnancy

have we grown stagnant again?
i feel that we have spent our time arguing with the thoughts we used to have.  we have won because we realized our previous thoughts were wrong. with the win we have decided to change. but i feel our change is not so much a change, but a camp that we are all stationed at because it is comfortable. we are all there. we dont need to continue. 

you 
me 
all the friends

we are there

why should someone leave?
how could someone leave?
is there something i can say to everyone that will make them want to go on together?
what is that word?

we are stagnant.

we are okay with that, and thats the worst realization.

also.

we dont cry out for help.
everything is ok.
but it's not.
but it kindof is.
it's this mystery that we've tackled. 
we don't change.
we let things build up.
eat away.
because i feel we are not aware.

we are humans.
it is our nature to sin.
if everything was ok, then shouldn't we just be our old human self.
there has to be movement.
there has to be restraint.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

i want your number

listen to booka shade's new single, here.

one of my favorite upbeat things on a rainy day.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

being in it

watching There Will Be Blood last night had my mind thinking. i am not going to spoil any bit of the movie, so dont worry. my mind was going back in forth in a "i am liking this" to a "i am not liking this" way. the same thing happened when i saw I'm Not There the other week. i am too concerned on what my perception is of the movie instead of actually enjoying it as a firsthand thing. 

maybe it is the blogging, and knowing that if i like or do not like what i am watching, i will want to tell people. maybe i want my opinion before i really can justify it.

maybe it is this quick comment someone said at our small group the other night. she said that it is like being on vacation in a great place and saying "this is going to be one of my favorite places" and you get so rolled up in that thought that you really dont enjoy it while being there. 

maybe we shouldn't love things or dislike things until we are done witnessing things. i, for one, have too many opinions before it all settles. 

once again, this might not make sense to anyone.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

bon iver




chills.
maybe my new favorite album from 2007.
barak logobama



go here and look at all the variations of obama's logo as it takes into consideration many groups of people of america.