the boat spent a few years taking passengers and luggage from one port to the next. all the while the passengers were satisfied and well fed and cared for and new friends were made between all of them. soon the ship wasnt necessary. it started taking on leaks. the vessel would be going down at some point. but it still felt the need to make the same route daily, even if no one was on the ship. each day it would sink deeper, but it would still have the strength. the captain figured out that the luggage on board was worse than the holes. the captain knew that the people and their new lives are much more important than the luggage left on board. the captain tossed the luggage, the ship rose, more luggage was tossed, the ship rose. the breach in the hull was no longer a problem. the ship rose. the ship rose. the ship rose. the ship would sail again. maybe not the same route. but the ship will rise. the ship will rise. the ship will not need the same passengers. the ship will rise.

i need to make my mind think more. i need to lessen my internalizing of things. i need to have a constant flow of information from ear to brain to mouth to brain to ear to brain to mouth to brain......one that doesnt stop.





it needs to flow. i need it to flow. not for you or me or her or him, but for all. i will carry my pen and paper. i will pray instead of fret. i will be present, hopefully.

this has been neglected

- the random videos that i would post are easier to post directly to twitter.
- the random links are easier to post to twitter.
- i am wanting to begin a wordpress account and have my blog be business.
- business in that sense means i want it to correspond with design / all of that.
- i dont post thoughts on here because the people that read this (jon, sarah, katie, dani, kristin, joann....) are people i would rather talk to about everything instead of directing them to some long URL and making our relationship more techy and less real.
- i have been busy with a branding project, and 2 websites for the freelance side of me.
- i am growing in who i am as a boyfriend. and this is also growing me in who i am as a human.
- theodyssey is opening my mind up. thats the easiest way to describe it. i feel like i am aware.
- extremely loud and incredibly close is still running through my mind.
- some people and i dont put effort into seeing eachother anymore, and i realize that with some of these people, we never really did. other people are stepping up. i am stepping up with other people. my bus of friends stopped and i got off. i call a few on the bus, they call back. we are learning what we need. and i am learning that it isnt about me being handed friends. it is about me making friends that are friends all around and not just friends who talk about work and complain about it daily. its about loving and talking and drinking and sharing and eating and it goes on. i can sum this up by saying i am learning what it takes to be a friend and through that i am seeing who my friends are....if you are reading this, things are good. dont worry.
- because of the above statement, i am trying to make new guy friends (similar to i love you, man)
- i want to photocopy all of the theodyssey stuff and give them to people who may benefit. but i also want them to take the course. so i may not do the photocopying.