Friday, April 21, 2006

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sometimes i feel that seniority is the most beneficial thing going for me. in many aspects. i feel that if i have been doing something, or i have been in one location for a longer period of time, i should be next in line for a prize or something. not really a prize, but next in line for something.

looking at this from a business persepctive, it is so hard to see people move past you, and make more money and have more opportunity.

its similar with everything.

ive prayed about it for years. when will this happen? when will she happen? when will that happen? when?

its frustrating. anyone can have seniority, it isnt a gift, it is just for the determined. i feel that i turned seniority into a gift. it makes me feel as if i have gotten something out of my labor, out of my trials, out of my frustrations, out of my life.

who could use 3 weeks in europe? maybe the one who has worked in the same place for 4.5 years, or the guy who has lived in the same room for 23 years, or the guy who has been waiting for some "one" forever. too bad its out of my pocket. oh well. enjoy the weekend all.
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4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Often its not about moving foreward in a physical sense. If you really want people to hear what you hear a see what you see then there is a good chance what you really want is someone to FEEL how YOU feel.

Isn't that the reason people put themselves out there in the first place? Putting out their music, their art, their words and lives. Isn't it really all in hopes that there will be a 1 single person that really truly understands you? That THE ONE will find you, and you may have helped fate just a bit with that one but if they come along its totally worth it and legal in the big scheme of things.

"Maybe, we think "we should just help God along just this once." Because we pray and we wait and we pray and we wait and maybe, just maybe we don't realize that our inactivity and our thoughts of poverty are what really kept us in bondage.

I would think, if you are the person I think you are, then God has given you the ability to see and feel things that others can't, and that in itself is beyond amazing. the ability to FEEL something no one else can. I would say that is pretty abundantly amazing and that alone is worth it in this world. Understanding is probably God's gift to you. I think if you acklowledge that first and foremost. If you take take what really matters deep down, and move out from there, start with those simple gifts, then really look at your life situations, start taking things apart you'll probably find that its thinking of lack instead of thinking abundance thats causing your stuck position in life. God and His universe respond abundance to abundance and lack to lack, not the other way around. Start believing you are abundant in life and amazing things will begin to happen. Start believing in your own abilities and you'll see that amazing things HAVE happened. If anyone can see that, it should be you.

12:19 AM
Anonymous said...

The previous comment by "anonymous" sounds like something John Travolta would write, which I think is a pity. It has some potential, however, "anonymous" drifts away further and further into his obscure Scientology views and therefore destroys it all. It's a shame, "anonymous", how could you ever do this to me?

12:37 AM
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