the last few months

i always need a certain thought to hit my head. one thought that puts all other thoughts away. this thought is kindof an satisfaction/looking back thought. let's backtrack.

i wanted to work with design. my frustrations with the stagancy of my life (6.5 years at starbucks, 6 years at college....so on), i needed a change. i tried to bridge my life by doing freelance work while i was in college and at starbucks. that wasnt much at all, it ended up being my volunteer work for vintage faith. i wanted more clients, i was never satisfied.

then i get this job, move to santa cruz, that is great. but this thought i had today is that i was blessed in my freelance. i've been doing a nice job at it. i need to not always be frustrated, i need to think about where i am at, and this is what makes me happy today.

i am gloating a bit. but i am not really too proud of my work normally, so i can gloat today.

in the last few months i made (in freelance / madebybrian.com style):
2 cds
1 logo
2 wedding invitations
almost done with a website
1 book cover / interior layout
lots of little things

i think i just need to be thankful right now, as i am usually unhappy or mildly bitter about where i am at in life.

audio / visual
here are things that i love right now:

DVD
- Mad Men (only 5 episodes in)

WRITING
- The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon
- Haruki Murakami's writing

MUSIC
- Crystal Castles
- The Dead Texan
- Horse Feathers (who i missed at the crepe place)

FUTURE
- Half Camping tomorrow
- David Sedaris on sunday
- Soulwax / 2manydjs on thursday
- Halloween
- Maybe Boston
- Maybe Tahoe
- Maybe My Brightest Diamond on Nov 24
- M83 on Nov 28
- Jesse coming home
- Nicole coming home
- Sebastien tellier on Dec 4
- Amber and Simon coming out for a month
- Tahoe
- Maybe i will swing some big trip in the winter.

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what should i read?
i just finished laughter in the dark by nabokov, and i feel like i have an array of options, and i am bored at work. help me decide what i want to read:

- sputnik sweetheart by haruki murakami
- life is elsewhere by milan kundera
- farewell waltz by milan kundera
- now and then by joseph heller
- the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon
- the corrections by jonathan franzen
- the final solution by michael chabon
- summerland by michael chabon
- amazing adventures of kavalier and clay by michael chabon
- the shipping news by annie proulx
- mary by vladamir nabokov
- the red pony by john steinbeck
- __________________ by ___________________