i can't even lift my head

If I should ever disappear
What would I come to?
What would I come to believe?

If I had seen your father
What would his face do?
What would his face do to me?

Oh, I can't even lift my head
To say a word
To say a word to you
I can't even recognize
What I did wrong
What I did wrong

Oh, I can't even lift my head
To say a word
To say a word

-sufjan stevens

i basically cant say things better than that.

my thoughts on living in zurich are skewed. i dont think its the change or anything like that. i think i just want to live my life with the attitude i had while in zurich. i might say that was the best day of my life. if only i can make that repeat itself here.

(in a weird way the zurich thing relates to the sufjan song)