c/k
yesterday was the day of cats

anniversary

starbucks turns 35 this year. ive worked with the company for 5 years. or 1/7 of their existence. i dont like that. that thought combined with work tonight made me not want to come back. those thoughts plus the thoughts of people in london and the beauty of zurich made me want to take off. so my plans entail much change. i think im ready.

in other news. why is FIT in new york and not in san jose.

i do this a lot


but im so excited about seeing matthew herbert tomorrow night. this is what it will be like. him plus full band.

strangest dialogue

-so when are you guys leaving?
-in a few minutes
-why so soon?
-we have to take my grandma's tights off and let her go to the bathroom and then we have to wash her back?
-is that fun at all?
-no, its not about fun, its about love. i love my grandma. i would do anything for her.
-sorry
-its ok. you're fabulous.
-bye

f o l l o w

i have looked at the word follow for a few days now. it no longer looks like the word i have known. i feel that each time i type it, i am spelling it completely wrong. so im tired of it. here is the fruits of my labor. its supposed to be a logo for the series.

letting yourself create

"how have you been creative recently?"

this question was asked last night. people perked up with response. creativity seems so important. so important to each individual that a perky attitude in response is provoked. this got me excited. excited to do, make, create, be.

Akron/Family - Gone Beyond

t h e n e x t s t a g e

i think i need to go to new york sooner than i had planned. and i need to go to new york when i had planned as well.

this wouldve been in the fifth and final act


everything seemed so perfect, and i did nothing. and i need to be alright with that. it was out of a movie. it was exactly out of a movie. maybe moreso if there was rain or sweeping music. but it was out of a movie.

i hate being at the state where if i say one thing, i could be happy for a moment and then i would be mildy dissappointed for the following months. or i could say nothing and be dissappointed for a short while (now) and be happy with my decision in the end. all the time knowing that each word i say is important and almost life changing.

i learned way too much between the hours of midnight to 4:30 am.
my heart will yearn.
my mind will remember.
my downfalls will disappear.
my heart will become.
my life will change.

(sometimes metaphors do justice in my mind)

yesterday i went from here:



to here


to here



the gorge in big sur killed me. both ankles, one knee, one shin, three ribs and the back of a leg are bruised. one toe is cut. muscles are sore in both legs, both feet, both hands, and my torso.

san francisco didnt kill me. we took four buses and one taxi. the longest time of wait for a bus being 5 minutes. otherwise we had no wait at all. first time in a while ive been up here without going to a concert or eating a burrito.

who is down for some nanking sometime soon?

add august 29th to my list

i just bought a ticket to see cat power. i dont know if anyone else plans on going, but im not worried about that. i just see cat power at great american music hall as one of those things that i will remember for a long while. so i had to do it.

Cat Power - Wonderwall

reasons to be excited

august 11:



death cab for cutie, spoon and mates of state @ the greek theater

august 12:

alexander robotnick @ the rx gallery

august 26:

matthew herbert with a live band @ the mezzanine

august 29:

cat power @ great american music hall

august 30:

jeremy enigk @ great american music hall

september 4:

cloud cult @ bottom of the hill

november 3:

the knife @ the mezzanine

november 17:

hot chip @ the mezzanine

bold text indicates i will be there for sure.

other exciting things are a trip to san diego and a trip to new york city.

this last weekend / part of the week

i always talk about how i like to be immersed in a culture other than what i am used to. ive grown tired of san jose/california roughly. but this last week, showing 3 people from london around the bay area was so much fun. i had the same feeling that i would have over the sea. it was to a different degree though. like i was in their culture while surrounded by my own. we showed them some stuff, but their excitement over the random things (seeing a valley or a reservoir or a funny sign or their fascination with the pink man in santa cruz) was so exciting. i know it will be more exciting if i go out to new york, to be in a part of american that i have never been to/be with people with english accents who will show me around. it just makes a lot of sense to me.

beer on tap

i had this thought the other day about how great it would be to know where to go in which cities to find a certain beer. say for instance i was going to san francisco and i wanted a Duvell on tap. how would i know where to go? beermapping.com doesnt help me out. it shows me my overall options. but i want to know which places have which beer on tap. i want a google map thing built around this. i want a myspace built around this. i think this should happen. i think this can happen. i cant really fully explain myself right now. but i can tell you in person that i want this to happen more than anything else. so think about it. and help me out. money wont help me.

so basically.....

november 3

the knife @ the mezzanine

november 17

hot chip @ the mezzanine on my birthday

you shall know our velocity



Mo! Thor!
(Did you know that in Scandinavia they always use the exclimation mark in greeting? I think this is true, even though Hand told me this. Remember Hand? He took you to the aquarium and argued with the tour guide.) So I have advice for you guys. I don't want you to actually use it. I just want you to hear it, have it, sometime after the fact -- after it's useful. Don't listen to me. Advice so rarely finds its intended audience. It's like the sword in the stone -- you leave it there, maybe someday someone finds it useful. Sorry, people -- we're driving through Latvia and I can't vouch for my state of mind. 1. Thoughts are made of water and water always finds a way. 2. If you can't dodge the water; run.

onto the next book.

troubleshooting


1. my inner ear problem.
2. my phone
3. my stocks
4. next semester

all with zero results.

carlos the dwarf


today i went to the garlic festival. one activity that i will never repeat.

freaks and geeks was the best.

still excited about tuesday.

i'll call him AC Slater


but the AC stands for Air Conditioning instead of Albert Clifford.
we have this portable/temporary AC unit in my room, next to my bed which is actually making me cold right now. i feel that wearing a jacket will suffice. but that goes against its purpose of being next to me.

in my readings, will and hand are in estonia, trying to bury a treasure chest for kids to find, but where will they leave the clue?

tuesday night is hot chip. it might be the best party ever.

the revenge of the book eaters event in sf will now consist of dave eggers, johnathon richman, sarah vowell, mark kozalek, zach rogue and others. should be good seeing as though two of my favorite musicians from sf will be there.

scotch lies

sometimes i feel that scotland never happened. im growing tired of investing my time and energy into the soon-to-be-futile-(______________) . maybe its just the heat that makes me think this way, or the 4 hours of sleep, or the anticipation for an exciting weekend, or the fact that the new jeremy enigk album is in my earbuds right now. who knows.

san sebastian spain or san francisco usa

in spain we walked around looking for burunda. we found it with the help of an american named chris who was handing out flyers/coupons for burunda. we thanked him/walked with him to the club. we hang out with him for the night/for the next night and that was that. we went our way through the rest of europe to usa and here i am.
last night, in san francisco, at zeitgeist, we walk out and the first person i see is chris. chris from spain. chris from america from spain in america. chris from (i forget which part of america) in san francisco. next to us. he reminds us that he was from nevada. but why in sf. very random. we talk, exchange emails. the whole time i think "this is the craziest thing to ever happen". i cant even comprehend how many miles we are from burunda.

he claims "the world is truly a small place".

now i fully believe that.